Today is day three. Our embryos have been alive for only a short time. We’ve been sending them good thoughts and good vibes. As weird as it is, Chris and I have been having conversations with our embabies; telling them how wanted and loved they already are, and asking them to stick around.
We were promised an update from the clinic today, so both Chris and I were on the edge of our seats. At 4:30 they finally called.
On day three, embryos should be 6-8 cells. Eight cells is preffered. Here is the current breakdown of our embabies:
- 2 embryos at 6 cells
- 2 embryos at 5 cells
- 1 embryo at 4 cells
- 4 embryos at <4 cells
Being a normal person, I didn’t really know what to make of this news. So I turned to Dr. Google. I discovered that not only are our embryos slow-growing, but typically slow growing embryos are less likely to result in pregnancy. So that scared the crap out of me. Great job, Heather!
I’m an open-minded woman. I’d like to think there’s a chance that they can grow and change in the next 48 hours. I’m not going to write things off yet.
However, I definitely just had the biggest cry I’ve had since starting IVF. I feel like I’ve been so stoic and brave throughout this process. I’ve showed little to no emotion. I’ve been super strong. Tonight it all came crashing down. My heart is so attached to these babies. I just wish there was something I could do for them. I feel helpless. But I still have hope.